| 71. You are just going to have to get use to it I am afraid. That is the way he is! Deal with it! You hate him and you have every reason too, he makes you do things you don't want to do but no point whining (whinging) and feeling sorry for yourself! |
| That is a good point that! I am starting all over again but I have never made it easier for me to start all over again it's always been just as hard as the first time. Maybe I could simplify the process since I have to do it so often?! |
| 72. You can't simplify the process of starting over that is stupid! |
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Yeah you're right there but because of Rod I am required to do so frequently. What I am wondering is that because I have to do it so frequently maybe there is an easier way of doing it than the way I usually do it! |
| 73. How do you usually do it?! |
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I move. New career, new start, new location! |
| 74. Why would you need a new career?! |
| Because he has wrecked that one! |
| 75. You change careers because of Rod?! |
| Yes of course I do! |
| 76. Don't do that ever again! There is no need to change careers whenever Rod does it to you! |
| There is no point staying there he has wrecked everything for me! |
| 77. The world never got a chance to tell you how they felt because you move away and started a new life every time Rod did it to you! |
| I don't understand what I am doing wrong?! |
| 78. You're not the problem, it's him! He's jealous! That's why he does it to you, he's jealous of you! |
| They hated me so much you see they wouldn't even talk to me. They used to say so many horrible and hateful things to me that it scared me. I felt safer when I wasn't around them I had no idea Rod did it to me because he was jealous he was just a professional fraud in my eyes and did this sort of thing for a living! |
| 79. They were angry! Even you get angry! Most of them lost their favourite shirt when they found out. When they calmed down you weren't there, they never saw you again, never got to chance to tell you how they really felt! |
| Look, someone was trying to kill me there were a number of occassions where I had found bullets in my bed, bullets in the walls, it was quite clear someone was trying to kill me but I was lucky I wasn't there when they did it. I thought it was these people because they hated me so much! |
| 80. Rod was trying to kill you not them. I understand that it looked like it was these people who hated you so much they wanted you dead but it wasn't them trying to kill you it was Rod. It's too late now to fix this problem unfortunately! |
| He would've got me eventually if I stayed there I was just lucky. I was being a Ranger during the day and was a marine at night I just didn't have any time to sleep. Even when my sleeping quarters was destroyed in a horrible fire I didn't know about it because I didn't have the time I was so busy, busy, busy! |